So the start of 2012 finally feels like its getting going. My little blog has been suffering from a lack of TLC lately due to a series of not so nice events at both home and at work.
Although the festive hols were (kind of) relaxing many family members were in and out of hospital making it a bit of a worrying time and the 'day job' became an extremely uncomfortable place to be with redundancy announcements causing many a horrible meeting and even more sleepless nights.
....but as the New Year burst through a glimmer of light began to appear. Everyone who was poorly is now on the mend, and a personal decision to walk away from the place I have worked since University has now given me a new sense of focus and strength. Looking back I haven't been happy for a long time now, so with the future looking unstable I decided to apply for voluntary redundancy.
Thinking and waiting for a decision took over everything. It felt like I couldn't do anything, trapped in limbo, while complete strangers were choosing my future. I hated every moment. Finally after months of waiting I found out this week that my application had been accepted and I will be leaving the company in six weeks time.
Making a decision to leave is never easy, but on reflection I know in my heart it is absolutely the right thing to do. The reality is slowly starting to sink in I am finally allowing myself to get excited about the year ahead and feel a real sense of pride in myself for making this positive change to achieve happiness and balance in a career but more importantly proud of being brave.
I don't really do New Year's resolutions but a new addition to my 2012 blog writings has been inspired by the popular idea of setting miniature targets before a certain age hits. Mine is the "before 30" deadline, and I like to think that my recent experience of taking a leap of faith and leaving the corporate world behind me (for the better) ticks #14 off with a big gold star.
One of my main aspirations has always been to run a successful business and blog, so this is my year. I now feel excited, reassured and with a new sense of re-energized drive in my life. I think sometimes doing some serious soul searching about your future makes you realise that life is worth grabbing and you only get a handful of opportunities to make yourself truly happy. Don't throw these opportunities away, no matter how scary they seem at first. Putting myself forward to leave a good salary was terrifying and I did get big waves of doubt, but ultimately I kept reminding myself how unhappy I was and the constant feeling that my dreams were being swamped everyday by a career I no longer enjoyed. The thought of staying scared me more than leaving.
So as far as New Year's Resolutions go I think "to be braver" is the one for me. I finally think I may have started the year with a big tick to achieving this one, however if I was to think of another resolution or two to stretch myself further they would have to be - to 'ride my bike more' and 'eat healthier breakfasts'! :) Well you got to think big right!
I hope your New Year's Resolutions are going well and life with you is a happy & healthy one. x
